Gym therapy?

This year has been a year of many ups and downs. There have been quite a few disappointments which not many people know. Well, then again, I try not to make these disappointments obvious, I just let things go the natural way unless it's too much for me to bear then I will totally withdraw and emo to myself. After which, I usually feel better. One of the sources of letting these feelings out of my system is the gym. I used to hit the gym about 2 times a week last year. During CNY, I tried 5 times a week to lose the weight I put on during the festive snacking. But soon after that, all the stuffs started coming and I realized how therapeutic gym/exercise is. You don't know how much better I feel after a body combat class where I imagine those crazy feelings/ those crazy requests from work/ the disappointments etc. as the punching bag. The sweat, the adrenalin and the endorphins which come with it, it all just helps to lift my spirits up in the midst of all that disappointments.

Disappointed

As an only child, my friends are one of the most important part of my lives. Besides doing crazy things, they are also the people whom I share things with. And, for my closest of friends, I share things and thoughts that are the deepest and darkest secrets/fears/feelings etc within me. Not that I do not share with my parents, but sometimes sharing with someone closer to your age and closer to that stage of life works better. And there are certain issues in life that I find very hard to share with my parents. To my closest of friends, however, I totally rip myself of all facades, tell my vulnerabilities and fears and just come clean to share my most honest thoughts and feelings as if they were my family having seen the best and worst of me. All the same, I do not share everything with one close friend. I share different things with different people. And while one close friend may hear about all my thoughts and struggles about work, another will not hear anything about my work issues, but hear about my love life etc. And my doing this is a very natural thing. I feel more comfortable sharing certain areas of my life with some rather than others.

Today I found out something which disappointed me so much that I could almost cry. A friend whom I consider a very good friend (let's call him A) actually had the nerve to share one of my private thoughts (which I had specifically said NOT to share with anyone) with someone (let's call her B). While the other person (B) whom A shared it with is also a close friend, but I remember saying very clearly that A was NOT TO SHARE IT WITH ANYONE INCLUDING B. And it does not help that this private thoughts are of B. I am not angry, but I AM VERY DISAPPOINTED in A. I can't believe that this actually happened, considering that I explicitly said before the sharing to A that he was NOT to breathe a word about this to ANYONE. I am VERY DISAPPOINTED.

I am still considering if I should confront A. But if I do so, A will tell B and it will be a never ending cycle. I really don't know. While I still consider him as a close friend, one thing's for sure, I'd just share stuff which I'm comfortable of having the possibility of it being passed around.